Church Life | My Story
"God has given me joy, he’s completely lifted the depression off my shoulders, he has given me peace, he’s completely taken away all anxiety and fear."
Over the last 20 years I have had lots of things that I have battled with in life; fear and anxiety, low self esteem and very bad depression, which lasted probably from my late teens through until the middle of last year. I was constantly low and struggling, I found it very hard to accept God’s love and His forgiveness. I also struggled with quite specific sins over that period of time and although I would come and repent, found it difficult to accept God’s forgiveness. Knowing that He loved me unconditionally was a head thing not a heart thing.
Last year a lady called Angela Kemm visited us from the church in Bermondsey and a few of us got together for a Women’s breakfast. She asked if anyone wanted to be prayed for, so I went up. Several people with spiritual gifts prayerfully reminded me that God loves me, cares for me and has forgiven me, since Jesus took my sins upon him when he died on the cross. I was also reminded of my identity as a woman of God. At the time and for a little while afterwards it didn’t feel like much had changed, but there are specific things that God has done since that time. God has given me joy, he’s completely lifted the depression off my shoulders, he has given me peace, he’s completely taken away all anxiety and fear. He has given me hope, hope for the future, and for us as a family and what God has in store for us. He has given me boldness and confidence, which I never had before. I’m not worried about what anyone thinks about me anymore, because I know He loves me and I’m His daughter. God reminded me of this verse, about how life is with him ‘For in him we live and move and have our being.’ [Acts 17:28]
